Memoirs of Pi

Hey guys,

I suppose I am long due for an actual post, it’s been awhile since I’ve updated you guys on anything, so I guess I’ll just start with whatever pops into my mind.

Yesterday, whilst in my 4th period class, my Chemistry teacher, Mr. Callegari, came into our class as the beginning for some reason, and he ended up asked me specifically what my purpose in life what, what was my passion. I was unable to answer him, and after spending much time thinking about it, I am still left without an answer. I don’t think I could have one specific purpose in life, and if there could be a general one, I am still clueless. As for passion, I am also unable to answer this question. Sure, I enjoy doing certain activities, but I can’t do them all the time. I enjoy programming, but I won’t do it every day, or every week. I’ll do it once in awhile. Same goes for anything else I do.

I’ve spent many of these past hours pondering those questions he asked me, and I’m still far away from an answer. I guess it’d be easier to start off asking myself, what do I want from life? Even still, it’s difficult for me to articulate any type of answer. All I would truly want out of life is; love, happiness, and a form of success. I don’t need to be famous, just successful enough to support my family, and make them happy. That is of course, if I do get married. Which brings me into my next thought.

This isn’t really a though about marriage, hardly from it really. But just over the past few weeks, I’ve been getting closer with someone whom I’ve known for a few years now (2-3 years) and I do feel a connection. We talked about it, and I am still unsure of the specific end result, but I feel that at this time, we will simply remain as friends, for her benefit, and continue the growth we’ve recently experienced. I don’t view this as a negative result, hardly from it. It allows a better chance for us to connect, and see what we both truly want/desire, which in turn, can create a better outcome for both parties.

I think I sound weird, when I start talking about relationships, and such. I start to talk/write differently, and even I notice it. For example, a friend had asked me about the relationship status of a mutual friend, and I didn’t know, so naturally I went to ask. This is how I asked it: “Hey , a third party has contacted me, to make a query about your relationship status.” It just came out that way, and I have no idea.

Regardless, that situation is but one example, and I seem to be able to say the right things? Which is a good thing I suppose, but I usually never know what to say.

On another note, I am still not sure as to what field I wish to pursue. I know I have been thinking medicine, but I am not convinced about it quite yet. I honestly would enjoy teaching a science class, at the high school level, but I just don’t think it’s the job I’d want to be my career. I have no idea though.

I am getting lazy in my studies which is a terrible thing, I have found less initiative to start studying/working for my classes. With that, I have a few labs due for Chemistry, and one to write up for Physics, and we’re doing another one tomorrow. I really need to get started on those.

I had a good laugh the other day, I was called an “existentialist” twice, in one day.
Just thought I’d mention that.